Bet you I would see it, if you were my boyfriend.

So, it's the season of spring? Or summer? Honestly, there is no different in SoCal.
Walking around campus, it's also the season of couples, oddly strange.

I always wonder what life would be like if I had a boyfriend that lived on campus, or even went to the same school. A reasonable driving distance would even make me happy! What a joy that would be to get to see my boyfriend everyday, him walking me to class, going on dates, and all that jazz. I haven't had a boyfriend go to the same school since sophomore year! Intense. But fortunately, not unfortunately, my boyfriend, or "significant other in my life," lives 400+ miles away. Don't get me wrong, I am happy with my current relationship, it's just, my mind wonders when I see all these couples walking around thinking, "Yep, that could be me, but it's not." Haha, anyways, I think what I'm trying to say is that, honestly, I am vulnerable. Not being able to see my boyfriend everyday or every week, it kind of kills me, but at the same time, it makes me stronger. I guess it depends on how I'm feeling at that exact moment. I always look at girls who are so hung over on their boyfriends and think, "you don't know how good you have it to have your boyfriend at your side at every moment." Or those stupid girls that take their boyfriend for granted. It's like, really? At least you get to see him. I think that me being in my.. almost four years (yikes!) relationship, it really has taught me a lot for the better. Oh, and to add, being with Ivann has taught me way more than any other regular guy out on the streets, not to name a few (Alden, hah!). I honestly don't know where I'm going with this blog, but to sum it up, damn, I really do miss my boytoy. It makes me sad, and it's getting so much prettier outside, imagine all the things we can do together. And I know, you guys are probably like, at least you have a boyfriend!! Haha, but in all honesty, it's always better to wait for that one to come, then to waste precious time on silly boys.

Which brings me to the next topic of actually have a man (or boy) in your life. I think that although I haven't really been in many relationships, I am done with messing around with boys (if I was single). I think it takes too much work, and for what? Just so someone can be heartbroken? Always have your standards high, and never settle for anything less than what you're worth.

"Someone that's beautiful deserves to be seen with someone worthy of beauty."

I mean Alden? C'mon, what was I thinking.. Haha, perfect example of don't waste your time on worthless boys!! The only thing gained is another broken heart and another boy that missed a wonderful opportunity.

Other than my ramblings..

.. because of all the beautiful people in my life (including you)!